This article is an excerpt taken from my Bible study,
Worthy of Love: A Journey of Hope and Healing After Abortion.
“You’re pregnant,”
announced the clinic director as she reached her hands across the desk, gesturing for me to do the same. Slowly, I leaned forward. She cupped my hands in hers and lowered her voice, “Look, accidents happen sometimes. We understand that. That is why we want to help. When you are ready to have children someday, we will be here for you then, too.”
I wanted to believe her. I knew I wasn’t ready. Still holding one hand over both of mine, she retrieved a form from the stack of papers on her desk. “Simply sign here. It will be over in no time and then you can get on with your life. After all, you are only fifteen years old.” No one mentioned baby, child, unborn, ultrasound, heartbeat, life, death, grief, pain, loss, or regret.
No one told me I’d have regrets. Regret that I didn’t ask for more time. Or regret that no one talked to me about adoption. Regret that I would later discover this would be the only child ever conceived in me. And regret that would propel a friendly, optimistic straight-A student into depression, withdrawal, suicidal thoughts, and drug and alcohol abuse in less than a year…
The Lies We Believe
As a scared, pregnant fifteen-year old girl, I believed my child was nothing but a lifeless mass. Twenty-five years later, I came face-to-face with a scar hidden so deep, it would take a miracle to bring it to the surface. And that’s precisely what happened.
Have you suffered the heartache of abortion? Do you struggle to forgive yourself? Do you have regrets?
I know what that’s like. For years, I kept my abortion a secret. I know what it’s like to suffer in silence. Worthy of Love is more than a Bible study. It’s a journey of hope – and a promise of healing.
Are you are ready to move past your fears and embrace the love and forgiveness God offers? Get your copy of Worthy of Love today and let the healing begin.
Exciting! The excerpt alone makes you look at real life, and all of its undue regret, and how God is and always will be there. Can’t wait for 7 more weeks, thank you Shadia. 🙂
I’m honored that it blessed you, Erin 🙂
This is great, thank you for this excerpt. I finished a Christian counselling course in June and one of the topics that we looked at was pregnancy and abortion. I learnt a lot about abortion and the unborn child that I didn’t know and I also learnt how regret and guilt can follow many women for many years. A really nice lady who set up a pregnancy and abortion counselling service shared how she works with clients that come to her and it was so inspirational.
I will come back by YAH’s grace over the next 7 weeks.
Thank you
Thank you for your encouragement, writer of Vessel of God. The next post comes out tomorrow 🙂
Dear Shadia. Thankyou so much for the work that you are doing. A Danish Facebookgroup has now been created focusing on the Post Abortion Syndrome. I have posted information about your book Worthy Of Love and links to some of your YouTube videos there and I will also post a link there to what you have written above. The work that you are doing is helping healing my heart, which has also been broken by an abortion. Love from Susanne.
Dear Susanne. Thank you so much for your sweet words of encouragement. You have blessed my heart and encouraged my spirit more than you know. I am so humbled that God would allow me to serve Him in this way and when I read that the message is reaching and blessing others, I find the courage and strength to continue with the work God has given me to do. Thank you, Susanne, for sharing the posts and links with others and telling others about Worthy of Love. May the Lord bless you and strengthen you as you reach out to others with the message of hope we all so desperately need. Bless you, dear sister!