“Would I bring to the point of birth and not deliver?”
These are the words God pressed on my heart yesterday. I was in my living room during my morning quiet time. But my mind and spirit were anything but quiet. My journal was open as I furiously penned thoughts and frustrations, prayers and praises . . . dreams and disappointments. Page after page after page . . .
Hurricanes on the east coast, wildfires on the west, and COVID racing around the globe. So much chaos swirling all around us. Yet at the same time, here we are simultaneously trapped in our homes. Work from home. School at home. Church at home. . . What a paradox! Proverbs 27:1 warns us,
“Do not boast about tomorrow,
for you do not know what a day may bring.”
Isn’t that the truth?Â
Letting God and Letting God
Truth be told, there are quite a number of Bible verses that remind us not to hold on too tightly to our plans. That can be hard when we live in a society where we are virtually tethered to our calendars.
But what if God gives us the vision? What if our plans are conceived by the Holy Spirit? What happens when we move forward in obedience only to feel like we just slammed into a brick wall?
God says in His Word that when we yield to Him, we will hear His voice saying, “This is the way, walk in it . . .” and that He will lead us in the way we should go. (Isaiah 30:21, 48:17).
So we move forward. We step out in faith. . . then suddenly, wham!
Facing Disappointment
A dear friend had just moved into a lovely home in the beautiful redwoods of Mount Hermon. She had been looking forward to having a quiet place where she could rest and God could give her son room to heal. Just weeks later, she was forced to evacuate because of approaching wildfires.
Another friend has a daughter who had been planning her wedding for over a year. Then COVID hit. They postponed the date. They postponed it again. Finally, she told her parents, “I just want to get married and move on with my life.” Others have lost their homes, or had to say goodbye to loved ones from a distance.
As I was praying and journaling, I was struggling with my own disappointment over the LEGION Bible study video production dates being cancelled at the last possible moment due to the fires. Add to that the enemy’s attempt to pile on guilt in knowing that my disappointment is trivial compared to what many others are dealing with.
The worse part of it is that no one knows when it will all end. In times like these, it is so easy to give in to despair, but that’s when we have to stop and say, “BUT GOD . . .”
But GOD . . .
BUT GOD knows. And God cares. In fact, long before He gave you the dream, He knew exactly how the path, timing, and outcome would look. This is when we need to remind ourselves that God is sovereign over all. In fact, this is one of the key themes in the teaching sessions I will be recording for the Legion Bible study. (Good grief, I need to heed my own words!) And so as I was praying yesterday morning, “casting my cares” on God about when or if the video production would happen, I heard God’s gentle voice, saying,
“Shall I bring to the point of birth and not deliver?”
“The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me.” (Psalm 138:8)
